Nice Guy

      Kang Maru

Father,

One day a woman walked into my life

I hurt her deeply with the harshest words possible

I pushed her away as much as I could

But, she still came back to me

She is so much like me

When I look at her, I often feel like look at myself

She has the physical wounds that I have

The tears that fill in my brain are flowing through her heart as well

I gave her those wounds

I made her cry

I should not have allowed her to come into my life

Father,

I’m regretting it

This is the first time I have ever regretted in my life.

Seo Eun Gi

Last night, these thoughts came into my mind

In any case, Kang Maru and I are not possible to be together

If I were to go crazy again, then what?

Where in the world is love impossible?

If I rebel and stand on my ground,

Anyone in this world would come and stop us

They will definitely try to separate and stop us

For the last time, I will run to him

For the last time, I will hold his hand

For the last time, I will listen to what he’s saying

For the last time, I will talk to him about my honest feeling

For the last time, he will kiss my scars, and

For the last time, we’re walking on the road we’re supposed to be

Did we came to the right place?

Isn’t there any other ways but this?

Did we pretend to not know, when we did indeed knew?

Staying up talking

Staying up making decisions

Even then, what if there is no conclusion?

What if I can’t give up?

(Hold on to me, I want to be next to you)

(I can’t break up just like this)

Kang Maru

I’ll definitely meet Eun Gi in the next life

When I do,

I want to date like others, be able to love like others

and get to experience the ordinary kind of love,

regardless of who they are and what they do in the world

that ordinary kind of love

I want to start all over  again

I think I prayed for those things to God

At times, I would ask those who know her, what kind of person she is

And at times, I’d hang around outside her house

Because I want to look good in front of her,

I’d learn “trot” dance and learn “baduk” that her father likes

And learn how to eat all different kinds of food without being picky

And at times, I’d memorize all the songs of her favorite pop artist

And at times, I’d go to the place she frequently goes

And wait her for the whole day

I’d tell her “I miss you” when I miss her

And I’d say I belong for her when I do

I’d feel excitement and gratitude

To date like other people,

I think I prayed for it

*Kang Maru meets So Eun Gi, and propose her with a pair of rings*

Thanks to you (So Eun Gi)

Now… I’m happy